I avoided this thing for so long. I cooked, I baked, I picked up my camera and even took photos. I never wrote about what I did. Various obstacles got in my way and the exhaustion of work took over. I ran and finished a half marathon. I sang the soprano role in The Messiah and made whirlwind plans for Christmas in Arkansas. The past six weeks have flown by as six weeks never have. And yet the events in Connecticut last week brought me to a standstill.